Toto Wolff has opened up about his depression. The Austrian highlighted the importance of F1 personalities speaking out on the matter and of seeking professional help. Speaking on the High Performance Podcast, the Mercedes CEO and team principal was candid about his struggle with depression. He explained that he had "stared into an abyss", constantly thinking about the worst-case scenario.
Wolff went to therapy. He does not want to completely lose his ability to see possible downfalls and remain skeptical, having seen successful people lose touch with reality. However, therapy helped him deal with feelings he could not previously analyze.
"I don't want to stop in a way thinking about that tomorrow could be really bad. Doesn't mean I'm a miserable person all along, but it keeps my skepticism intact.
"Talking to someone was more about overcoming past trauma, overcoming emotions that I couldn't really analyze. I've suffered like Lewis [Hamilton] said, I've suffered from periods of depression from the age of 18 onwards, couldn't kind of define what that was, why was I feeling so dark?
"And when that got really strong, that I couldn't handle it myself anymore, I started to speak with psychiatrist and psychologist later on and that really helped me to analyze why I was feeling that way and how the tools that were given to me, to utilize these moments of reflection and introspection, but not dragging on with the suffering a lot," he explained.
Opening up can help others, Wolff explains
The Austrian was asked to explain what he felt during those moments. He explained:"The feeling is that you can't sleep properly, you're waking up with a sense of darkness that of, it's very difficult to describe that actually in a way of there is no hope for your future."
He cited a
Formula 1 party in Monaco in the early 2000s as an example, saying that if someone had told him they were struggling with a similar issue, it would have helped him.
"I think there may be someone that's looking at me and saying, he hasn't got the limitation that I have. And I realized it's a superpower to have that sensitivity. That can drag you very low because you're vulnerable, but it also gives you that superpower of reading a room easy, of understanding somebody else's personality and how that affects your interaction, and feeling vibes in a much better way and running an organization fundamentally because you care about the individual."
He also highlighted the importance of high-profile drivers such as Lewis Hamilton, Lando Norris, and George Russell having previously spoken out on the matter, explaining that this can help people understand that these difficult periods can come to an end.
"Even if you can't see light at the end of the tunnel, because things are so bad, it always ends. I didn't believe it would end at this sometimes. I had the support of my friends and family, Susie has been tremendous, kept the system going when I was not capable of doing it. It always ends. This is a phase of your life that can be days, weeks, months, maybe even more than a year."
He then once again highlighted the importance of seeking professional help. "If you're open minded about looking after yourself and speaking to somebody else, seeking professional help, not go to the pub and have five beers with a mate who hasn't got an understanding what's happening. If you speak to someone, this is going to pass."